Heartache
how can i leave a piece of my heart here
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the feeling of anguish
regret
and sorrow all plague me relentlessly eating
away at my fragile visage
my heart is restricted by a constant ache that
accompanies it every time i see you smile
joy flees taking cover shielding itself off
from you
the thought of leaving has my very soul
entrapped in anger and an overwhelming
sense of sorrow haunts me choking me
to the point where the air feels
constricted every time i try
to remind myself to inhale and exhale
tears fall one by one down my cheek late
into the night as i remember every real and
made-up moment we shared
how can i leave a piece of my heart here
when i've never felt so whole?
the burning in my chest justifies all reckless
thought of telling you how i feel
however, the fear of rejection still lingers in
the background restricting me from giving
you all of me instead i gave you bits and
pieces of my heart
questions of my appearance, or my
intelligence stop me completely silencing me
an overwhelming feeling of shame keeps the
truth enclosed in my heart
all the sound advice i shout at the screen in
romantic movies are forced away and
forgotten regarded as nothing but odd blurs
i plaster on a fake smile with
a joyous atmosphere surrounding me and
i fight back against the whirlwind
of emotions i feel
i ignore it all and securely store it away
gently ignoring the tears that brim my eyes
every time you look at me
so, i whisper my final goodbye to you under
my breath canceling every new and
unfamiliar emotion that you brought when
you came into my life
the knowledge of our season coming
to an end still haunts me,
but the ghost of a smile and
the hopeful spirit you ignited in me
will always be engraved in my mind
you added to me and i will always
love you for that.
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